The Out Burst
The next day, Paul was absolutely infuriated and distraught. He texted Lauren because he felt like she had the right to know that this affair was actually nine years, not six. Apparently, Lauren was getting all of her details of the affair from me, since her asshole husband Brad wasn’t telling her the facts. Well, of course this didn’t bode well with Lauren either. Apparently, a few hours into the work day, Lauren messaged a fellow coworker of mine on Facebook telling her the details of my affair with Brad. She also decided to text my boss as well. I was unaware at the time. My boss told me later on that she was waiting until the end of the day because she didn’t want to make me upset.
During the work day, Paul was texting me here and there with bullshit texts from Lauren as usual. One text in particular, threw me over the edge into the deep end. Apparently, penis size was now the topic of conversation and Lauren said something about me begging Brad to continue the affair when he clearly wanted out. ALL BULLSHIT! I immediately grabbed my phone and started texting wildly… “This ridiculous exchange of information between Lauren and Paul has to stop. First of all, Patrick’s penis is MUCH BIGGER than Brad’s and Paul is the only one that knows how to satisfy me…” I’ll just stop right there as I continued to go on and on about Lauren and Brad both being manipulative and that yes, the affair started in 2013. I also mentioned my abortion, my molestation and about me feeling that I can be easy and easily manipulated by men. It was somewhat of another confession/apology I guess in its own way.
I sent it to Paul, Lauren and Brad in a group text. Again, so irrational, yet so liberating! Don’t you dare say shit about Paul, his penis size or his sexual passion. Once again, I will emphasize that Paul’s penis is much bigger than Brad’s. That’s where I drew the line. I fucked up yet again and in turn, this message was copied and pasted to many more of my coworkers a few minutes later. As a result of my outburst, the affair had now exploded into our place of work.
I didn’t sleep very well that night and when I finally did get out of bed, I was distraught. I texted Lauren and disclosed what I had learned. She shared that this made her utterly inconsolable. That somehow she always knew that we didn’t have the whole truth - we still didn’t have the whole truth. At one point, she asked if we could speak but I was at work and I didn’t feel up to it. To this point, my conversations with Lauren, whether via a call or text, she has always maintained that she would not stop “until the whole world knew how fake they were”. “They”, meaning Sarah and Brad, of course. This became a more frequent part of our conversations. At times, I had even suggested I might feel better if people knew as my anxiety made it feel like everyone already did.
With this latest revelation she started to discuss it again and I found it to be part of each text she sent. During that tumultuous first month, I had at times, sent Sarah messages and screenshots of what Lauren was sending. I’m not sure why, but I did. In reflecting on this now, I can say all it did was heighten everyone's anxieties. This morning’s thread of messages even contained a comparison of penises - length, girth, degree of satisfaction, etc. When Sarah read this, she was infuriated and lashed out in a similar fashion to the evening when she sent an apology text. Except, this time, she sent a lengthy text to all four of us! Sarah’s text included another apology, an emphasis on my penis being “much bigger” than Brad’s, and other events from Sarah’s past that had nothing directly to do with the affair.
I would only find out hours later that during this early exchange of texts, Lauren was also texting members of Sarah’s department - including her supervisor. We don’t know the full extent of what Lauren sent but what we do know was enough to send both Sarah and I - and mostly Sarah - into an emotional tailspin. As it turned out, recipients of Lauren’s messages received them throughout the day. The grand finale was a full copy and paste of what Sarah had sent to Lauren, Brad and I in the group text from earlier.
As texts were being read and pieces of this story were being put together by those receiving them, Sarah began rapidly texting me that her supervisor had arrived at her classroom while she was teaching to explain what was happening. She would later bring Sarah her belongings so she could leave the building immediately following that class period in an effort to save face by not having to go back to the department office and therefore removing the need to face her coworkers.
A word or two on my penis - lol come on of course I was going to comment on this. Most men have some concerns about the size of their penis - but this was never really me. I have always had a firm grip on this subject - and so has Sarah. I had always received positive reviews over the years before I met Sarah and even a cursory glance at internet “research” would tell me that I was in a very good place. That said, I didn’t really need it being broadcast to coworkers. However, this is precisely what happened and it would come up a few times in the days and weeks that followed in what were thankfully relatively tame venues.
The average penis is between 5.2-5.6 inches long when erect and has an average girth of 4.5 inches. Paul’s is definitely longer and wider than Brad’s. Lauren pushed Sarah over the edge when she commented that Brad’s penis was a healthy size which made Paul freak out about the comparison. The truth is Sarah is the only one that has seen both and it is clear the winner is Paul. As Paul stated, over the years, he hadn’t been too concerned about this, but after the affair, it is something that he tends to think about from time to time. Not only did Lauren and Brad know this information now, but so did numerous coworkers at work. Embarrassing to say the least. These innocent people received these inappropriate and disrespectful messages that stemmed from Lauren’s outrage. We both took the day off from work the following day as we were emotionally spent. Sarah planned to send out an apology to her entire department saying that she was sorry that they were forced to become involved. We decided to walk together into the school building the next day to support one another and since then, despite the “behind the back” chatter, things all-in-all have settled down. Paul’s immediate coworkers are supportive and Sarah’s coworkers seem to be shocked and appalled, but at the same time supportive of both of us because they want to see us succeed. One coworker texted Sarah, “Thinking of you and Paul everyday. We are rooting for you and we love you both.”
